Please Be Greater
I’ve been pondering the idea of a God that is greater.
We were informed this week that the kids will likely be moved to another home in a month. One month. I have one more month with these kids who’ve spent their lives in our home.
I don’t presume to be the best or only answer for the kids, but my heart sinks for what they’re up against should they leave. They are too young to sit down and explain what’s about to happen. Will they feel abandoned when I place them in the arms of a stranger and walk away? How long will she wonder when we’re coming back to get her before she accepts that we’re just never coming back? How will I be able to get through that moment where I will my feet to move and actively walk away from them? How will I be able to get through that day knowing I will never be able to hold them, tell them I love them, tell them it’ll be alright.
Will it be alright?
I don’t know. Pain and hardship loom on the horizon. Fear and defeat reign in my heart. We face a mountain and a battle that extends beyond our kids. God, you are greater… right? Please, please be greater. Please protect the kids from these worries that fill my head. Please protect these babies through what’s to come. Let them feel your love when they can’t feel ours.
Take this mountain weight. Take these ocean tears. Hold me through the trial. Come like hope again.
SO hard. Ours have mostly been older. I find myself searching crowds, especially when I see a group of school kids on a field trip. Just in case. So I can see they’re ok. But once again, they’re not there and I find myself having to surrender them into God’s hands again. Our sermon this morning was on God working good out of all, no matter good or bad. It was a timely reminder. My head knows, but some days the heart struggles. Trust your head right now. He IS good. He WILL watch over them, come what may. Even if their life is a struggle from here, He will work it for His good.
Thank you for this reminder. I love what you said with trust your head right now. Amen!